LDF

If only I could stop breathing,
squeeze this ache and
clasp the vertigo inside me
in my fists...

If only I could run
to close this space
that reminds me that we're apart,

If only I could make you truly see--
see me,
how I am without you,

Then there would be no need for these quiet tears, shouting in ALL CAPS, and emoticons.

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Must stay calm.

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so this is how it feels to be angry.

Seriously? Seriously. How could you?

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For Inspiration...

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Heart beat!

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Bird in Flight

Fingers melt into sable wings.
I, a fluttering form
unable to escape these walls.
Nature dictates
its well-worn path--
This is north,
That is south.

I must go my own way.
But I cannot help
but be defined by you,
pulled by an instinct
born before me.

Ah, nature.
Or cruel fate?

I think we both yearn to break
away from this bond
and discover
our own shapes,
removed from these hands--
this glaring light,
that only illuminates our
incapacity to see beyond ourselves.

So why do we hold on
to this painful mimicry,
of me trying to be what you are,
a life void of color,
unable to let you go.

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Rationalize!

I ABHOR Omission!
Why? I would do the same.

Why?

It will just sour the talking!
You're talking about good things and then you're going to mix in those other people for no good reason?
How would that go, "Oh, by the way, I hung out with so-and-so"

But isn't honesty always first. What else is there, without honesty.

Peace?
How do you rescue that--hanging out with so-and-so?
To rescue it you have to say, "she's actually interesting"

I guess.

Which makes it even more weird!
The other option is "wala lang"
---Which is WORSE because you'll think he's being secretive!

Fine.
Rational, but not helpful.

So no exit talking about pointless meetings
So just omit!
Omission is the key to healthy relationshipssss.

What a lovely way to live.

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How much space does one person need?

So this is it...



This is the living room. LANG. hehe. I'm planning to make it my bedroom. :)
Then down here is the kitchen. It's HUUUGE.



And this is the bedroom which I plan to convert to my work room. :) It's really too much space for just one person.


Visitors, anybody? nudge. nudge.

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Orientales Putas!

(9th ave and Hudson? What does that MEAN? hahahaha!)

Last Sunday, we ended up drinking with J's friends from Kaplan. Apparently, there was a girl there who had a crush on her classmate so she got the wrong idea (thought J was after the guy) so she kinda got pissed. We thought it would be easier if we just left but the other girls told us to stay. So, we did.




We ended up drinking on the rooftop of their apartment.
The moon was full...with beer and drunken laughter.

"EXCUUSE, Why is two?"

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Is evanescence--fleetingness--a necessary element of the thing that most moves us?"
--Gregory Maguire

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Mikha's Fragile World

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We rejoice in our broken-ness.

"How children love the broken thing! And a puzzle is for the piecing together, especially for the young, who still believe it can be done."

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Where's Fluffy

" The way you're moving in your sleep
The way you look before you leap
The strange illusions that you keep,
You don't know, but I'm noticing. "

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No way out.

I'm so screwed.

I just found out that there are no trains to Boston in Turner Falls. Kill me now.

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